Ok so… 2013 is really here and we’re almost halfway though January already. That’s just… weird, right? (or am I just old??).
Today it is GORGEOUS and sunny and 80*. Winter is confused and so am I.
A couple of weeks ago the temps had been hitting the low 40s at night and only got up the the low 60s during the day for at least a week (that is cold here in Florida, y’all!!). So, while most of the year I am in t-shirts, shorts and my Crocs flip flops (most comfy shoes in the world!!), I am also used to layering up when we get these little cold “spells”. I sit outside on our back patio almost every single day and work and write my posts. I can see the little lake and watch my herbs and veggies grow in our patio container garden (and just maybe spend entirely too many hours on Pinterest, FB & Twitter!).
And don’t get too jealous – it’s a rental. We’re not “committing” to another house until we get Oldest all set up in college this Fall. Anyway, my home “office” is basically outside where it’s quiet and peaceful.
So, it was 3-4 weeks back when this cooler weather set in. Littlest (AKA Mr. Fearless) decided that he realllly wanted to go in the pool, and he asked several times a day (like 100 times) for a few days in a row. I kept telling him the water was just too cold (and I wasn’t going to waste a gazillion gallons of propane to heat it, either!). In-ground pool water is pretty chilly at this time of year compared to what the kids are used to in the Summer so I tried to distract him with other activities and ideas. And the iPad.
But he kept badgering me about it – he would not let it go. So I did what any great Mother of three (who was trying to finish a blog post) would do. I told him to go get his bathing suit on. Enough already. I figured that once he felt the water he would change his mind real quick-like. Not to mention, I wasn’t winning the 2012 “Mother of The Year” award at that point anyway, so…
Well, don’t you know, Mr. Sassy Pants was back outside with his bathing suit on and shirt off in less than a minute. All on his own. It was only like 64* out, for the love! I was (most likely) wearing yoga pants and a sweater and slippers AND my fuzzy robe!!
So I said, “Ok, you’re out here. No dipping a toe in – you have to jump in at the deep end”. Thought that might scare him a little…
But that is exactly what he did.
I wish I had a picture. He swam the length of the pool and then proceeded to have a perfectly glorious time playing in the pool and in the (un-heated) hot tub by himself for about an hour. Crazy kids!
But it has really had me thinking over these last few weeks. Littlest has always been my “brave” boy. My daring adventurer (who is SURE to be the first one to break a bone, I just know it and try not to think about it!). He is fearless , almost to a fault, sometimes!
He laughs in the face of “danger”…
And, looking back, I used to be pretty darn brave too. I’ve traveled all over the country for work. I cannot tell you how many times I have flown West Coast and back and then also abroad almost 10 times – many times by myself.
Over the years, I was never afraid to meet new people or speak my mind (doesn’t always go so well, but that’s just me!). I started new business ventures. I bought, renovated and sold houses on the side. I WAS pretty fearless and brave!
But lately… I feel like I’m really not so brave anymore. I think sometimes we grow up and we start holding back. I’m sure part of it is just maturity (I am not jumping in to a freezing pool, mmmK?) but don’t you think that a good part of it is just plain fear? What if someone doesn’t like my ideas? What if they don’t like ME?? The doubts swirl around in our heads and at some point we DO hold back and we stop putting ourselves and our ideas out there because… well, what if we fail? Yes, we hold back. And eventually… we just stop “jumping in”.
When I started writing online it was something I had been thinking about doing for a while. So, in being here and starting this, I “jumped in” in my own way. I took a risk that I am happy to say I do not regret. Well, not yet anyway. And I am taking some more risks coming up soon at the end of this month when I will attend my first “Blogging Conference” called BEECH Retreat followed by a second called BlissDom in March. Whoa, what?? I signed up to go and be surrounded by brilliant Bloggers and writers and innovative thinkers and so much creativity?? Just typing this I got a little scared all over again.
Yes, I am over the moon excited to get even MORE inspired and to meet new friends, and to also finally put some faces with names - people who already inspire me daily with their amazing posts (like Ruth and Edie and Kelly and Jenn). I am SO looking forward to growing and to learning and, in turn, sharing those learnings with you all!! But, yeah. I’m a little scared too.
Guess I should take some tips from this guy…
Nonetheless, I have decided that 2013 is the year that I am “ALL IN”. While I’ve had my share of success over the years, I have certainly had some business and financial failures too! But I’m not giving up and I won’t let any doubts or fears stop me from achieving my goals. Life is scary sometimes and I intend to scare it right back (to “Claire-ify it!” , if you will).
“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” - Deuteronomy 31:6
Be “Brave”, my dear friends. 2013 is your year to shine. Or maybe just to get organized. Or to start following a budget. Or just to figure it all out. YOU know your goals and I know you can achieve them.
Any big goals for 2013? Any fears? Would love to hear your thoughts, plans and goals. I just know this year has a lot in store for us all!